After a Long Day

it's always nice to have a light break. And so it was nice to look at all the beautiful pictures my friend Danelle took of our little Alba. Somehow I'm lucky to always have a friend around with great photography skills.

Anyway, today wasn't a great day. Alba has definitely "woken up", or rather, she's seems to not go back to sleep. At least that's what was going on last night. And I just don't do well with little sleep. She definitely seems to want to be held when she's awake, which is something I generally don't mind, but I can't hold her all night long. Last night it seemed like no matter what I tried, she'd wake up the second I layed down, and then would just cry unless she was being held. So, there was a lot of crying at night, and a really tired and frustrated Fran in the morning...Then Sophia decided to wake bright and early, with crying as well (something she basically NEVER does). Needless to say Sophia was not greeted by a happy and patient mom. Anyway, to make a long story short - today was simply rough. I was really tired, and really grumpy, and therefore pretty impatient with both of my kids. Sophia watched movies for probably 2 hours while I tried to catch up on some sleep (thank Heavens that I do have a daughter who will behave and watch a movie, while I snooze...). At some point I had Sophia put me in time-out. I didn't get anything done or did anything fun with my daughters. Alba keeps getting these random, violent spit-ups where spit-up comes gushing out of her mouth AND nostrils, and usually is aimed well enough to not only cover me in it, but have it run down my cleavage. And if I'm not covered in spit-up, then I'm leaking milk like crazy to the point where I think I should just have a little bucket under my breasts to catch all the milk - it's so much. Anyway, you get the idea. I felt really distraught by the end of the day because I felt like such a crappy mom. It's hard to feel good about yourself, when you reek of rotten milk, look dead-beat, have no nice clothes to wear, haven't done anything with your kids that makes your home better than daycare, when you're tired, and lastly cramping and bleeding. Seriously - being a mom is not for whimps. :(

But then Henry came home early, and we all went for a family walk in beautiful weather, and I got those nice pictures to look at. So, at least the day ended well. Enjoy the pictures!