Too Fast!

Time goes by too fast. Yesterday as I was driving to the Outlet Malls to exchange some pants for Henry, I realized how much Sophia has grown already - in just a few weeks. And it made me sad because it made me realize how fast it all goes. Before I know it, she'll be a big girl, and I'll be in a nursing home. :) I just love holding her close, seeing her cute little movements, hear her little grunts, have her wrinkle her forehead, and curl up into a newborn baby ball. Now, she's already out of some of her clothes, wearing partially 3-6 months clothes, being awake more, playing more, being bigger, but also sleeping longer at night (she's been going fairly consistently for at least 4 hours in the night, and last night she ate at 11pm, then 3.15am, and then 7.30 am - very pleasant to say the least). Anyway, I just cherish the moments I have with her, and as hard as it is sometimes to be up at night, or to deal with her when she's been going all day without any sleep, I realize the time I have with her is limited, and before I know it, things will have changed. I want to hold on to all those sweet moments with her! Urghhh...But then, it's also fun to see her grow and develop.

I've been trying to figure out what her personality is like. I'm still not sure about it, but here are a few things I have observed:

• Sophia likes to be "in on the action". She likes to be held, but not just held, she wants to be walked around where she can see different things. She does extremely well with us running around doing stuff. In fact, it almost seems like she prefers that over being at home in my arm.


• Sophia is very observant. You can watch her paying close attention to everything in her visual field. She's already playing with toys that dangle in her reach, hitting them with her hand. I mentioned it before, thinking it was accidental, but having observed her more now, I can tell that she sees the object, and has realized that she can make the object do stuff if she reaches it. I'm amazed that she can already do this, but not so amazed when I watch her. She really watches what's going on. Smart kid!


• Sophia seems to have some of her mom's temperament. She can go from 0 to 100 in no time. That means that usually, for example, if she's hungry, she won't start fussing around. Instead, she may be sound asleep one second, and then wake up the next second screaming because she's hungry. Seems like there's no luke warm with her. She's happy or she's not, there's no inbetween.


• Sophia is really cuddly, but also seems to like to move around. She likes to eat, like her parents, and sleep, like her parents.


• Sophia has a lot of determination. I've noticed that when she's on the play mat, and sees an object, and tries to touch it, but can't, she gets really mad. It seems that she already has a lot of determination on certain things, and when she can't do it, she gets really frustrated. She'll be a little overachiever.

Anyway, it's so fun to have Sophia in our home. She brings us so much joy, and it's great to be a family. It's also nice to have the responsibility to be a parent, and thus be pushed to be a better person. However, it's also scary to have yet another person in my life who makes my heart a more vulnerable place. It's bad enough to think that something could happen to Henry. Now I have Sophia to worry about as well! It's scary to think that life is so unpredictable and that at any time I could lose either one of them or both, or that they could get hurt, or ...you get the idea. It's great to love and scary at the same time!